Material | Paper fiber, acrylic
Size | 45 * 38 cm
Series | Experience
Work’s name | Homesick
This painting mainly reflects my feelings about “home.” When I was very young, my parents divorced, and since then, I’ve gone through many ups and downs. I witnessed my family crammed into a small, shabby house, verbally hurting each other, and even engaging in physical conflicts. Because of that, I chose blue-green and muted tones to convey those emotions and the sharpness of conflict. However, it has been 20 years since those events occurred, and many of the scars, fears, misunderstandings, and hatred were left behind in that time. Today, my family is doing well, but this history is one of the reasons why I have always been very independent and also why I’m more emotionally fragile and sensitive inside.
Now, 20 years later, this is the moment when I can finally let go of the responsibility of caring for my family and be true to myself—leaving the place where I was taken from, returning to the capital, and slowly learning how to deal with my own emotions. This painting holds immense significance for me, even more so than any of my other works.
{Extended Creation}
I gave this painting a song, which corresponds to the life of “me as a child” in this painting and the life of “me as an adult” at this moment (my life as an adult is expressed concretely through music) For some elements, my music creation records my feelings in the form of arrangements, so you will hear irregular melodies like abstract painting combinations, which is normal and what I want to express!
材料 | 紙材打底劑, 壓克力
尺寸 | 45 * 38 cm
系列 | 個人經驗
作品名稱 | 家鄉
這幅畫主要反映了我對「家」的感受。我很小的時候，父母就離婚了，從那以後，我經歷了很多坎坷。我親眼目睹家人擠在又小又破的房子裡，互相言語傷害，甚至發生肢體衝突。正因為如此，我選擇了藍綠色和柔和的色調來傳達這些情感和衝突的尖銳性。然而，那些事件已經過去20年了，許多傷痕、恐懼、誤解和仇恨都在那時留下來了。如今，我的家庭過得很好，但這段歷史是我一直非常獨立的原因之一，也是我內心更情緒脆弱和敏感的原因之一。
20年後的今天，我終於可以放下照顧家人的責任，做回真實的自己──離開被帶走的地方，回到首都，慢慢學會如何應對。這幅畫對我來說具有巨大的意義，甚至比我的其他作品更重要。
{延伸創作}
我給了這幅畫一首歌，來去對應這幅畫當中「小時候的我」與寫照這個時刻「長大後的我」的生活（長大後的我的生活是以音樂來去具象表現一些元素的，我的音樂創作是將我的感受以編曲的方式紀錄下來，因此大家會聽到像是抽象畫組合式的不規則旋律這是正常且我想表現的！）。
